life-story.: January 2010

Saturday, January 23, 2010

ni rang wo hen shi wang

you,

wat has become of u ? y r u becumin like dis ?
wat sin have we done 2 u ?
ur being a 2 sided jerk . y ? wat do u get frm doin dis ?
do u knw dat im really disappointed in u ? do u knw dat im really hurt ?
do u knw dat she hurts too ?
do u knw how worried we are wen u ran away ?
do u knw dat ? no , u dont ..
coz u nvr tot of wats goin 2 happen if both found out ..
sadly bt truely both did found out ..
n i shall repeat it again ..
WE'RE REALLY DISAPPOINTED IN YOU ..

maybe u didnt realise wat ur doin now , i just hope u will one day ..

before ur at loss , of those precious ones ..

im sorry if our way hurts u too , dun take it e other way round ..

its nt dat we're mad , its just dat we're very upset ..

we care 4 u dats y we're trying to wake u up ..

pls cheer up , pls be true , pls dun lie ..

using ur fave colour im ,

truely sorry (insertname) =(

Saturday, January 16, 2010

anak nasirin

ABDUL QARIM BIN ABDUL NASIRIN ;

see dat picture ? yes yes , dats ayim ! his super gerek i tell u ! let's recall my times wif him .. ehems2 mic check mic check .. hehe .. kaekae .. we didnt really talk or even smiled at each other in yr 2007 , yet we goten closer at 2008 .. dis wont happen if nt coz of kiki hu invited him to our class aft cca .. kae i rmbr clearly dat day .. eventho at dat point of time we didnt knw each other , just by names , dgn sardine nye he hit me wif a broomstick ! kurangs btul ! heh .. but it was fun tho . mulut peh bising nie anak hahaha ! maaf ehk .. n den things happen .. tknk elaborate mls nk elaborate .. hahaha i knw u knw suda .. den blablabla .. ouh ya ! ders dis period of time dat we didnt talk to each other ,senyum pun tk .. like we're total strangers lar .. mcm .. nvm .. aft afew mths , i repeat ehk MTHS , den we strted talking again , smiling again .. yada yada yada . dis yr kn nie anak nasirin kn really arh mintak frm me u knw .. recess time nnt muncul tau arh tu dier nk uat aper .. tgn dier da standby arh kn .. tk psl2 maen catching plak aku kt skola hahahahaha ! tapi yes indeed he cheered me dwn wen im feeling low . his e best of e best wen it comes to making ppl smile after a long cry , yes yes .. idk how he did it , bt he did .. nie pakcik mcm ader power to make ppl smile just by muncul dgn secare tibe2 tau .. eventho ur goin thru sumtin really difficult wen u see him arnd evrytg just stop , btul tk nisa ? btul kn btul kn ? hehe i know .. easy said .. his a pleasure to be around wif .. truly , deep dwn i treasure dis frenship we had kae ayim ? heeeess ..

Thursday, January 14, 2010

torn again ..

hey u , yes u .. tanx for being there for me yar , eventho its just a short period of time i feel as if its been years .. yada yada yada .. u've made my day , everyday .. all e time .. lalalalala .. u've said smthg to me today dat i was hoping u wouldn't .. bt still i smiled .. faking evrything lar kae .. watever it is , u're still e best ! hahaha .. yes yes ur still e best okae .. just gona miss ur voice n ur laugh .. gaaaahhh !

wo hui xiang ni de

h.s ;

wo zhi dao na zhong gan shou dan wo hai ai ni

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

helo! its been afew days since i've been blogging . mls lar wei .. haha well , hanifanatics has been irritating me wif her besar tu tk besar lar sister . days had pass by so fast u knw . like i said , im a strong girl tau . i dun mind , i'm happy wif my life as it is . well i dun wana elaborate any further . waste of my time . bleahs ! so i went on wif my life , n yes yes i really must thank hamba2 allah nie sume , ehems2 .. i wan to thank my tresses , oiai , my voletta ,jiweku kiki warhead , bdak2 botak ku hehe , my 2 gangsta(shu shia & valar) hehe , my 4N1 cliques , my sume lar haha ! yesyes .. tanx guys for being der for me wen im in superb trouble . sayang u guys lar sey . rest assure yar , im fine .. ^.^ im back as i am before . whee ! gerek kn ? i knw .. haha kae az da strt merepek sendiri .. lalala ..

H.S !!! ur presence lightens up my dead dead life . hah . u knw nt u really effing cute tau hahaha . kae az stop it sia. well yesyes , i gt back my self confident n my cheerful self all tanx to u . tankiu tau . plz ehk tkmo kembang . i bite u den u knw . hehe . dis H.S ehk very gd at making ppl smile tau . never fail to make me smile . ily okae ? hahahaha !

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

is this not the end yet ?

Yes, baby, I can be the woman you want me to be.

But, the question is, can you be the man that I need.

You question my ability and ponder over my youthfulness,

Baby, the question hasn't been answered yet?

Don't worry, I'll stick around for a while,

Even if it's just to look at your smile.

OMT ! OMT ! help help help ! hasnt dat feeling fade yet ? or has it came back ? or im just trying to force myself forgeting all my past ? ohh please god give me an answer . tell me what am i suppose to do . y must i be the one facing this ?? all alone :'( i repeat ehk ALL ALONE .. haish . its okae , everythings gona be fine . i knw im strong to go thru this all by myself . i've been thru this all the time bt i felt different this time . ohh god , answer my prayers fast :'( im suffering inside eventho im smiling widely . gosh ! im crying n typing at the same time . recalling every single moment with him . ohh im sorry , i really do . im nt showing u my ego or giving u bullshit attitudes . im just trying to forget the past so that im able to forgive all your mistakes towards me . yes yes i may sound so selfish to do this to you . bt i have to . its best for both of us . ohh god please , stop crying girl ... i knw my patience n trust on him went down the drain . but but but , i knw him in & out . his just not being himself , n i don't understand y . maybe someone talked him out or maybe his just thinking the other way round .. wake up from your loooong sleep please ? i don't want any other person to suffer the same situation , okae ? for the sake of urself , repent from all your unhealthy activites , that's all that i asked for . let's help each other to move on with our lifes by being ourself for once . we've been pretending n tryin to be what we're not . dear friend , remember what i told you ? if we're meant to be then we're meant to be . now i myself am not to sure are we meant to be or are we not . seperating wasnt what you wanted , getting back tghtr wasnt what i wanted , its not because your forgotten its just that im not yet able to forget the past , like i say , im trying forgive you . im trying my best , stop being soooo nice now coz your making me sooooo down . its nt a bad thing its just that i dont wana cry anymore . seeing your face broke my heart into pieces , coz u knw y ? ur smile means everything to me .fuck shits ! AJOYA ! stop crying please ..